Saturday, October 19, 2013

Update

Good morning, friends. Sorry I haven’t updated in awhile, but I feel like author blogs should be happy places where fans can come to find out what has been going on in our lives. Believe me when I say there has been little happiness in my life lately. My much beloved father was working in his garden, mowing the grass, and caring for my mom who suffered from Alzheimers one day, and on life support a few days later. He contracted double pneumonia and this caused a mild heart attack. He simply could not recover. He was on life support for 14 days, 14 roller coaster days of ups and downs. One day there would be an encouraging sign and my brother and sister and I would be ecstatic, practically over the moon with joy, only to plummet back to earth, hard, the next day when he seemed to be slipping away. To his children and grandchildren, my father hung the moon.
He passed away September, 10, 2013.
May you forever rest in peace Daddy and know that you were the heart of our family.
Nothing in my life has ever hurt me like his death has.
Needless to say our entire family was devastated. This man had been my rock forever. I know many of you have lost a parent and know exactly how I feel.
As if that wasn’t bad enough 4 weeks to the day later on October 8, 2013, my mom passed away from what they think was a blood clot.
By this time we were on grief overload and stood in line at the funeral home while friends and family paid their last respects on autopilot.
Years ago my dad gave me the land to build my house on right beside him. So, in the morning when I’m standing at the kitchen sink filling the coffeepot I look out the window at Dad’s house. He isn’t sitting on the back porch “warming his bones” as he usually was every morning. While I was mowing his grass yesterday I kept looking in the house windows hoping I would see him looking back at me. Is that strange?
I still get a catch in my chest whenever I enter his house that makes me think I might never breathe again, but then I sit in his spot on the couch and feel his presence around me.
I got an email from Lucy asking that I update my blog more frequently, so this is for you.

Now, about Lynna’s Promise. I didn’t write or edit a word for six weeks. The first couple of times I tried to write this week didn’t go too well either. Nothing. Not a single word would come to me.
Two nights ago I finally got my mojo back and sat up writing all night, so Promise is coming along on schedule.
I would like to thank each and every one of you that emailed me to be put on the mailing list and your gracious comments about my books.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I couldn’t do this without you.

Love,

Kitty Margo